*I’m typing this from my cell phone with an infant attached to my chest*
This weekend will mark approx 6 weeks since baby arrived!
Couldn’t be more thrilled about no longer being pregnant, but I can’t claim that things have been much more comfortable lately. . .
I’ll go over the challenges in a bit, but first the basics:
Healing, went well and was fairly fast, I had no tearing and respected my bedrest orders as much as possible. It was approximately 2 weeks until the bleeding stopped and I felt stronger and more capable with less pain.
Cramps, lasted about a week for the most part. Nursing baby helps speed contracting, though it makes it more painful to accelerate the process.
Okay, here are all of the things that have been an issue due to my, rarely mentioned, *invisible illness:
Naturalfeeding, was going well at first. Baby got his fill of colostrum and a good amount of the first milk.
However, this pregnancy was hard on my body, because of my thyroid condition, and took a lot of my resources. Since delivery, my thyroid has all but crashed completely.
My muscles are depleted, my joints are loose and ache, my body is stiff and sore, my mind is somewhat in a fog (not as bad as usual), my appetite is GONE, and I’m always worn down.
We went to my 6 week postpartum appointment this week, and I discussed with my midwife what my physical abilities should be at this point. While the midwife agreed that I have healed beautifully from my delivery, she saw trouble with how my thyroid has been affecting me lately.
Due to my body’s inability to function fully, it has, for the past 2-3 weeks, been unable to produce the amount of milk that my son needs. While I am still nursing him, we have had to supplement with formula as well. At least until I recover from surgery, which is scheduled for sometime in the next two months.
Weight loss, has been completely halted since week one postpartum.
Another side effect of thyroid disease. My weight is stable at exactly the original scale drop of130lbs and holding steady for the past 5 weeks.
That to say, I gained 20lbs of actually weight of my own -separate from the “baby weight”- and it’s not going anywhere.
At the one week post point I had lost only around 5 inches from my waist, and since then, I’ve widdled down about 5 more. Still pretty far from my pre-baby size or shape! I’ve even got quite a bit of cushion around my hips and butt, which my husband is NOT complaining about.
My midwife, technically, gave the go ahead for resuming workouts, though she stressed concern for my physical health condition and suggested that I hold off until after my surgery. Though that was just a suggestion.
I do plan to resume workouts again soon, as I informed her that I’d been practicing light yoga sessions since around week 4, but I’m obviously going to listen to my body and not push myself beyond my level of comfort or ability.
Yoga has been such a relief on my back and shoulders, which have only gotten beaten with more stress due to naturalfeeding baby.
Managing my home and life? Nope.
Baby reeeeally needs to be held… at all times… by me. So, the husband has really been stepping up his game of pulling his weight around the house. And while I’m grateful and appreciate his extra effort and initiative to keep the house in order, I also suffer from mom-guilt -as well as sick-guilt- for him having to do MY chores as well as his, and this is after working 7-5pm Mon-Fri. No, I haven’t dropped off completely and become a useless burden to the house, despite the fact that my son won’t sleep at all unless I’m holding him, I do what I can… with one hand… and 7lbs of baby hanging from me… between HOURLY feedings. Yes, hourly. I don’t know how.
But, my husband always reminds me of how lucky I am to have chosen him.
Somehow, through the pain and stress of it all, we haven’t let it negatively effect our relationship.
Despite the reputation of new parents, we have been intimate again since bringing home baby and we make a point of fitting in all of our usual hobbies and activities, as best as is possible with baby. He’s still too young to take hiking, to a fancy dinner, or on long road trips, but we were able to get in a 3 mile walk around our local lake recently. It’s all about managing priorities.
Priorities do change with a newborn, and continue to change as babies age, or brothers and sisters are born, or mom’s health fails, but it’s imperative that you have a someone to love and support you (doesn’t matter if it’s partner, parents, siblings, bestie, or your local community resources. “It takes a village!”) and the overall investment in making it all work.
So, I guess we’re probably exactly where we’re expected to be as parents of a 6 week old infant… over-stressed, isolated, and sleep deprived!
Hope you are more informed now, whether you’re pregnant, postpartum, or just checking up on our story.
Thanks for reading.
We’ll be posting another video soon, so please look out for that too!
*Invisible Illness: Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis
**for those that follow on social media, please be aware that I’m no longer using Facebook for the time being, but can still be found on all of the previously posted social networks.
Links in previous blogs. Sorry!
Till next time. . . .